I tried to have a guest post because this is difficult for me to explain, but I will do my best.

When I had brain surgery in March I suffered an injury that has left my memory severely impaired. We met with neuro specialists last week after extensive testing, and the results were grim. My short-term memory barely lets me see a word and then write it down.

This situation has caused the confident, sure-footed version of myself to curl up and withdraw from situations where I may need to draw on my memory. Friends, hobbies, activities that kept me going have only served as a reminder of how out of touch I am. Important things like birthdays and promotion dates and even that a friend has a hard thing coming up are all things that I grasp aimlessly for now; unable to remember long enough to follow up and follow through. It’s embarrassing and it’s crushing; taking the very essence of my talents and gifts. The only way I have known how to cope with this new limp is to pull back and retreat. I have hidden away, afraid that my “forgetfulness” will be perceived as uncaring and dismissive. Being the people person that I am, I just can’t bear the thought.

Supplements and mind exercises stretch from days into weeks as I try to find anything that will help support my memory coming back to me.

I hope that my people remember the me that could remember, and know that my heart is still there, longing to be that girl again.

9 thoughts on “Forgetting”

  1. I’m so sorry Hannah! You have been through so much! You , Mark, and your family are in my continued prayers. You are such a light to everyone around you and your bravery is inspiring. You are a beautiful soul and have an army of friends & family who love you, support you and praying for you! This is such a difficult time, and I’m sending you a hug sweet friend!


  2. I’ve been thinking about how to respond. Can’t come up with anything other than I’m sorry.
    I’m sorry that it’s hard, and I’m sorry that there doesn’t seem to be a fix.

    I’m glad you updated. I think of you every day and send kind thoughts.


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