6 months ago my hospice doctor signed a paper that said if my disease continued at the current progression my life expectancy was 6 months or less. Welp, surprise! Here I am! Seriously though… I know that no man can put a number on my days and only God knows when that time will be. And it will be the perfect number of days, because He planned it that way.
Does it weigh heavily sometimes having that kind of thing spoken over you? Yes absolutely, but I have to choose to continually give my fears and anxieties over to my Heavenly Father, because I’m not meant to carry that kind of weight.
With the help of some insanely wonderful friends and even people I have not gotten to meet yet I have been able to try some more natural treatments for my body, and while I do not know for sure how they will work I know they are a gift from God and they do my body good. I know that I’m still here.
I am so thankful for more time. There are days when things seem scary and overwhelming, but we keep taking each next day and making it the best it can be, because it is truly a gift. The gift of time. The gift of more snuggles with my littles. The gift of more smiles, more memories, more treasured conversations with my people. It is not lost on me what an incredible blessing this is.
I remain in hospice care at home, and my team members are the most compassionate people you have ever met. I’m so blessed.
Some of my favorite people have moved mountains to span miles and spend time with me and check in on me and love me in all the ways. My home is a revolving door of my local tribe encouraging me, entertaining me, bringing me sweet love. After a long and hard period of extreme isolation and many prayers for community we have been surrounded in the most amazing ways.
Sometimes I look into my eyes and I see that it’s changing me and I get afraid. I wonder what’s going on in there and what my future days will look like. Then I remember I have not been given a spirit of fear, but a spirit of love and of power and a sound mind. That’s all I need.
10 thoughts on “Time”
You are loved Hannah.
Praying for you.
Thank you Holly!
God is in control! Praying for you!
Thank you Brenda!
Oh, Hannah, your mental strength is a Gift for all of us from God !! Your words, your story inspire so many !! You turn your crumbiest day into a gift and are truly amazing for this. Along with my “normal” prayers for you, I’m going to add that God puts “new to you” and “experimental” treatments for you to explore.
Look upon Hannah with eyes of mercy. May you healing hand rest upon her, may your life-giving powers flow into every cell of her body and into the depth of her soul; cleaning, purifying, restoring her to wholeness and strength for service in your Kingdom. Amen.
Love & Hugs, Mary Beth, Scott, Lissa, Brandon, Draven, Ava, Mike, Kayla, Sophie, Libby, Matt, Steve, Briana & Steffi
***your healing hands***
Thank you! Your encouragement means so much to me.
Prayed for you
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