Gratitude

The Gift of Time

About a week ago I discovered my first real, here-to-stay gray hair. At about an inch and a half long, the silvery strand sparkled in the light, and I squeaked with delight. I have been waiting for this day!

It felt almost holy, that moment of noticing what the world often calls a flaw but what Scripture calls a crown. The Bible says, “Gray hair is a crown of glory; it is gained in a righteous life” (Proverbs 16:31). A strand of silver is not something to pluck away or hide in embarrassment—it’s a shimmer of honor, the whisper of years lived and stories carried, a reminder that time is a gift.

The world tells us that beauty belongs to the young, but God tells us that beauty deepens with age. Every laugh line is a history of joy. Every crease carries the memory of burdens borne and released. Every gray hair gleams with testimony: of lessons learned, of prayers prayed, of nights endured and mornings met with new mercies.

Aging is not the dimming of the light, but the soft glow of it spreading, warming, illuminating. It is not a loss—it is a gathering. We gather wisdom, we gather perspective, we gather gratitude for the fleetingness of days and the eternity that awaits beyond them.

To age is to live long enough to love more deeply, to forgive more freely, to see life with eyes unclouded by the urgency of youth. It is to carry within us the sacredness of experience, the sweetness of perspective, and the quiet strength of having endured.

So when I see that little silver thread sparkle in the mirror, I do not feel embarrassed. I feel crowned. Crowned with grace, crowned with wisdom, crowned with the reminder that my days are in His hands and that every year is a jewel added to the story He is writing through my life.

Fun with gray

Aging is not something to hide. It is something to honor. Something to embrace. Something to rejoice in.

Because every gray hair is not just a strand—it is a song of God’s faithfulness woven into us, shimmering with glory.

Gratitude

For Such a Time as This

Throughout the debilitating process of this disease I admit I have wondered from time to time what good this trial could possibly teach me. It seems unfair. I have been wrestling with this question more so as I see the effect it has on my littles and my husband lately. What good is in it for them? God promised to use our circumstances for good (Romans 8:28). As the resulting wounds have grown deeper I have been asking more often; what are you doing God??

In typical fashion, He is faithful to point out His hand in my life and quiet my unbelief. Esther 4:14 runs through my brain on a constant loop; “perhaps you were created for such a time as this.” Then I was brought to John 9. Jesus and friends are with a blind man, and His friends asked why this man was born blind; was it because of something he or his parents did? The answer Jesus gave is everything. He replied, “No, this happened so the power of God can be seen in him.”

Wow. Talk about humbling. To think that God thinks enough of me to use me to reflect His power. This does not make the journey easier, but it makes it worth it. When I’m tempted to complain and long for the healing of Heaven I want to remember that His power is at work through me. It really is obvious, but sometimes I’m a slow learner. Look at how long I have been fighting! The average life expectancy with this is 6-10 years… I am in year 12! Why would God keep me here and allow the suffering to continue if not to bring glory? If you need proof of miracles well, you’re looking at one!

To God be all glory for allowing me the gift of being His and giving me a purpose beyond all I could imagine.

Gratitude

Gratitude

My heart is struggling with gratitude. It’s a beautiful season, and all around I see my people running races and taking hikes to see beautiful trees, and I have grumbled to not be able to do those things now. I had a procedure yesterday that was difficult for me, and stirred a lot of fear and unease. I can feel it tempting to swallow me. This is when I know I need to fight hard for a grateful heart.

Knowing this season has pulled hard at my mental health, I started keeping a gratitude journal. Not only does it force me to think about the best parts of my day, but it leaves a road map for me to look back on and remember all the big and small graces that have sprinkled my days. I gifted myself a Sprockett 😂, and I’m using it to create a daily reminder of all the things I have to be thankful for.

Have you ever found yourself in a season of life where you struggled with gratitude? Lets band together and make sure we are stopping to notice the little things, even when the big things try to overwhelm us.

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