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Exhaustion

Hannah

I’m grumpy. Last night I threw every trick I had at my pain. Every essential oil, medication, balm, massage, heavy blanket, heat, and desperate prayer. Yet it managed to throb steadily on through the night hours and into the morning without a moment of drifting off to sleep. Now as I count the minutes until my alarm goes off, it hardly seems worth trying to snatch any last seconds of shut eye against the roar of pain. I’m sure each of you have wrestled sleep deprivation at one time or another, and you know how your usual problems seem 10 times harder when you’re running on coffee beans and daydreams. So yeah, I’m grumpy and I know it and I’m praying sweet salvation over my soul.

Today I will need the strength to care for a husband who isn’t feeling well. I’ll need the wisdom to meet with a school counselor to plan the next semester in a way that’s most beneficial for my child. I’ll need the patience to help with missing homework, and the clarity to stay alert while driving kids here and there. It would be easy to despair before the day has even begun.

I’m reminding myself I am carried though. Carried by my Father who will never leave me, and the prayers of my people who never stop helping me press on. Please meet me there. Meet me in the fight, the grueling repetition, and the endless prayers, because goodness knows they’re needed today.

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  2. I hope your day went well yesterday and that you were able to rest last night to “catch up.”  I just wanted to say that I find your blogs very encouraging. I randomly found you on Socials and find your writings to be inspiring. Isaiah 41:10 ”  Do not fear, for I am with YOU; do not be afraid, for I am YOUR God, I will strengthen YOU; I will help YOU; I will hold YOU with MY rightous right hand.”  ~tarah nichols

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    1. Tarah, thank you for taking the time to read my posts! It makes me so glad that they are encouraging to you. That’s one of the reasons I write, is because if God can use my story to minister to someone else then it’s worth it. I love that verse in Isaiah; one of my favorites!

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  3. Praying for you, Hannah. I pray that the Lord’s strong arm continues to uplift and uphold you each and every day. God bless you and your family and may you have a peaceful and joyful Christmas in spite of all the trials and stresses.

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