When I met with my counselor recently she said, “If you were given the space and peace I think you would succumb to your illness very quickly, but out of sheer stubbornness you continue to exceed all of our expectations.” She’s not wrong. As far as the stubbornness scale goes I’m way up there near the top, and I do have quite a number of things I want to feel like are going to be ok in my absence. I realize that may sound arrogant, and some of it probably is, but I also think most of us if we accepted that our time is limited have things we want to settle before we leave this world.
I think there are pros and cons to this stubbornness to cling to life. As a culture we really look at death in a strange light considering it is something that happens to all of us eventually. We measure the length of a person’s life and state that they were taken too soon, or they died much too young, but what if it was exactly the right time? What if your story hangs heavy on the thread of /this/season, /this/ loss?
We seem to live in a mutually accepted denial of the fact that we and those we love have an expiration date. This has a tendency to rob us of a joy and peace we can experience in the face of anticipated loss. We can all probably find a little purpose by leaning in and loving like crazy and then graciously walking our loved ones Home with our presence, our honesty, and our understanding.

Well said! I think of it as a hallway… Where we hang light,lanterns, beautiful works of art and inspiration as we pass through.. We were never intended to live in the hallway, But we are invited to live in the majesty of what’s beyond the doorway at the end of the hall. I know He waits for us there..
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Well said! I think of it as a hallway… Where we hang light,lanterns, beautiful works of art and inspiration as we pass through.. We were never intended to live in the hallway, But we are invited to live in the majesty of what’s beyond the doorway at the end of the hall. I know He waits for us there..
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Absolutely, yes!
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Love like crazy – that’s me go to option too! Linda xx
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Little sister God is carrying you through this and giving you time with your family. Praying for you little sister.
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Hannah,
I completely agree with everything you expressed. The Lord’s purposes are inscrutable, but His timing is never wrong. It is a gift to be able to live and to love with eternity in view.
May the Lord deepen the love you share with your family and friends and enrich the time that you spend with them.
God bless.
Craig
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Thank you Craig!
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